Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Unit 10 - So Long Every One

I can’t say how much has changed since unit 3.   However, I have learned a lot about myself during this course.  I think whatever it is inside of me has been stirred up.  It’s as if something is still cooking in the oven, but it’s not done yet.  In unit 3, I discussed having problems identifying giving to myself.  I am still processing the thought of the experience.   It scared me at first and I know it needs to change, but I’m still not clear how to do so.  If I had to rate my assessment from 1-10, 1 being the best and 10 being the worst it would be 7-psychologically, 6- physically, and 6-spiritually.
When it comes to my psychological assessment, I have learned to be more observant and pay attention to my behavior in most of my situations only when I am conscious of it.  I am learning to control my emotions a lot more and I am learning not to let my feeling get the best of me.
As far as my physical assessment, I have not been physically active like I use to be.  This is because of school and 2 part-time jobs.  As soon as school is over, in June 2011, I will be physically active again.  I can’t wait.  I am looking forward to it.  The other thing is to stop smoking.  I was never able to smoke and workout at the same time.  This may help me cut down on my smoking.  Meanwhile, I will get one of those smokeless cigarettes kits and start with that first before I start working out.
My spiritual assessment is one aspect that needs the most work.  I have finally made up my mind to stick with the word of God instead of jumping around different types of religions.  I will still stay spiritual than to be religious.  I don’t see myself joining any church anytime soon.  I have notice I pray differently.  For example, instead of wishing to have something, I’m thankful of what I have and instead of asking him, I already clam it.
The goals and activates I set for myself is to continue the meditation exercise given in class, Subtle mind, Calm Abiding, and the Visualizations.  I need to make a commitment on doing these exercised daily.  I have been so busy that it has been difficult to put it into action.  Whenever I get a break, I sleep, but I will make a stronger effort to do more by adding it into a daily schedule.  Make an appointment to myself to meditate.  
Since the course, it has truly been an in lighting experience.  I have discovered a lot about myself along the way and I need to continue to practice what I have learned every day.  I believe people can heal themselves, but you have to know yourself, trust the process, and know there is something bigger and greater than all of us.   If I can relate to the experience where one has gone before than I can be more connected to assist anyone who seek a deferent model of health care and experience a more integral path to human flourishing.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Final Project Unit 9

Unit 9 – Final






Michelle Breckenridge






Creating Wellness-Psych & Spirit. Asp of Healing



HW420-03





Professor

 

Mark Maule






January 23, 2011













I Introduction:
Why is it important for health and wellness professionals to develop psychologically, spiritually and physically? 

It is important for health and wellness professionals to develop psychologically, spiritually, and physically so we can determine practices and methods that lead to solving human suffering.  Our own life experiences of suffering and the discoveries of self-healing bring us wisdom, knowledge, and compassion that we can share with other individuals (patient or clients) who seek care and want to improve their health and lifestyle. 

In our reading assignment it was said, and I will never forget, “ One cannot lead another where one has not gone him or herself” (Marilyn, S., Amorok, T., Micozzi, M., pg 477).  It is part of our practice to always evaluate our own response in life’s experiences and use what we learn to allow us to heal and maintain self-care.  In turn, it allows us to be more personable with our clients, more understanding to their needs, build confidence between us both, and over all, have compassion for our clients.


As a health and wellness professional, all three of these aspects, psychological, spiritual, and physical need much improvement.  I have found myself teaching what I don’t practice myself.  It is easier to see it in someone else than it is to see it in myself.  I believe if I start exercising spiritual practices, everything else will fall in place.  However, I must put actions and effort into what obviously needs to change, which is my behavior.  Attending church or getting involved in a bible study or reading my bible more may give me a better understanding of my purpose in life.  The desire I had as a young athlete has never left me, but I do want to improve my physical activities by participating with my clients in fitness programs and utilizing some of the free spaces in the neighborhoods such as the city parks and school track fields, get involved in community events such as The Run for the Cure, MS walks, runs, and bike rides.  I am learning more about my psychological responses to life by being more observant in the way I react to certain circumstances or situations.

II Assessment:
My assessment for each domain
Spiritually - I have found myself jumping around from one belief to another.  Not that I’ve practiced every religion that I ever had interest in, but I have taken pieces from what I have learned and used them to guide me through life and enable me to have some spiritual connection to something greater than myself.  For example, in Buddhism I practice mantras and mediation on breathing and praying for peace for all living things.  Although not a region, I study Kabbalah, which is the study of science of the soul and the physics of fulfillment, because to me it has meaningful information about human existence.  I learned in Kabbalah the difference between acting/reacting and causes/effects.  I was raised as a Christian, which I still believe in today, however I have a problem being committed to a Christian organization.  I’d rather be spiritual.

Physically – Since I have been in school, I have not put aside any time for physical activity as I once did in the past.  In fact, I am afraid to weigh myself, although I can tell by my clothes that I have gained weight because they feel a little more “fitted” than what they use to.  Between schoolwork, trying to run a business and working part-time, it has been challenging and very stressful.  As a result, I have started smoking again.  During the years, I have gone back and forth trying to quit, but for now it is not a priority.  I will quit someday, I just don’t know when.  As far as my nutrition, I can say it’s probably the only thing I feel good about as far as my health.  I cook most of my meals from scratch, using fresh produce versus processed products, and I make my own nutritional smoothies.  I do need to drink more water during the day, especially because I am smoking and drinking lots of coffee, things that can dehydrate a person.  I also drink a lot of Red Bulls to keep my energy levels up for those long nights doing schoolwork. 

Psychologically - Probably the most confident aspect that seems to be changing more rapidly than the other two is I am learning from the spiritual aspect.  It makes me more aware of the important of being kind to others, being observant of my behavior and others, and I have more control of my emotions.  On the other hand, since class I have come to realize some areas that need improving.  I need to start giving to myself more, learn to balance work, fun, play, and rest, adapting to changes (letting thing go), and having a sense of contentment, regardless of whether the situations is good or bad. 


When scoring my wellness 1-10, 1 being the best and 10 being the worst, it would be the following:

  • Spiritually - 7
  • Physically - 8
  • Psychologically - 5


III Goal development:

List at least one goal you have for yourself in each area.


My spiritual goal is to focus on the Christian beliefs, practice and understand prayer, and improve my knowledge and understanding of the Holly Bible.

My physical goal is be stop smoking in the next 9 months, commit to a workout routine with other individuals such as friends, family, or co-workers using resources of equipment at recreation facility, school, and city parks, and drink more water, 8 oz four time per day minimum.

My psychological goal is to learn new thing about adapting to change, find balance between work, play, rest, and school, continue to build and maintain fulfilling relationships, and maintain self-confidence and self-esteem.

IV Practices for personal health:
What strategies can you implement to foster growth in each of the following domains?

Physically:

I would plan a 4-month workout by increasing my activity level and/or adding a new type of activity in three-week increments.  I would start off with 20 minutes a day, 4 times a week of stretching and short brisk walks around the neighborhood during the first 3 weeks.  The next 3 weeks I would alternate between walking and jogging.  Next I would maintain my jogging and add another activity utilizing my weight (5, 10, 25 pounds), stretch bands, and fit ball for a full body resistant and muscle stretching routine for 45 minutes per day, 5 times a week and a 20 minute run.  I will start my P90 exercise program that works from DVDs and play a different lesson each day for 5 days, 45 minutes lessons, with a 20-minute run afterwards.  As the program becomes more challenging, my main goal will be maintaining, and it will keep me motivated and most likely keep me from getting bored.  In addition, it will be an opportunity to stop smoking, drink more water, and tremendously decrease my stress level. 

I want to join a local bike club and ride the Colorado trails.  I found that the Denver Bicycle Touring Club (DBTC) sponsors weekend rides publishes their schedule of activities and ride in their newsletter.  I love to ride bikes, but I have never participated in long distance or mountain bike riding.  The club members provide support and advice on bicycle equipment, clothing, and road safety rules, and a good advice on riding the distance.  I don’t have a bike yet, but by July I will have one, and I plan on joining the club then.  I think it would be fun. 



Psychological:

One practice that I will continue to do that has been a great tool in settling my mind is to write my thoughts down in a journal.  When I was introduced to creative writing in the 11th grade, I started keeping journals and continued to write make journal entries during the years.  Of course back then it was called a diary.  Twenty-five years later, after moving from apartment to apartment and from one state to another, I found eight of my journals in a box while unpacking.  After reading over a few pages from my journals, it was quite an awakening to see the reflection of my life experience on paper so many years ago.  It gave me a sense of my confidence and an understanding of my behavior back than compared to now.  The level of maturity and a sense of confidence were enlightening.  Now days I haven’t been journaling as much as I should.  I only do it when I feel like I can’t talk to anyone, and I always start my journals with Dear God.  I will make it a point to reflect my experience at least once a week just to see what I can reflect on and have a comparison in the future.  

My second practice would be meditations.  I have always tried it in the past, but there are so many methods and practices to choose from, it can at times be confusing.  Some seemed complicated because I could never stay focused.  Plus I was always looking for that awesome moment of truth in my mind’s eye where I would hear a voice, see colors, or images would appear.  It never seems to be very clear.  However, using the meditative practices from this course gave me a since of self-awareness more than any other meditations I have ever experienced.  The Loving Kindness, Subtle Mind Practice and Meeting Aesclepius opened up possibilities of me knowing who I am.  I will continue practicing every day until I develop a sense of confidence to move to the next level to find a sense of happiness.

Spiritual. Provide: 


The first practice would be joining a bible-study group that teaches the word of God as it relates to real-life experiences.  There is one group in Denver that meets twice a week for 6 months.  The bible study covers from the beginning of Genesis to Revelations of King James version of the Bible.  There are hour-long classes and entails discussing passages, assigning homework, and apply reading.  No fees are required.  The group brings snacks and drinks to each session.  There is a meet-and-greet gathering before the study just to get to know everyone in the group.  You must start at the beginning of the 6-month program, as you are not allowed to start in the middle of training session.  However, if you miss a class that day, you can get notes from someone in the group who will update you of the missed lessons and assignments. 

The second practice, which I currently do and have been doing for the last 17 years, is a 40-day spiritual fasting during the celebrations of Lent (March 9th - April 23) for 40 days.  It is originally a Catholic fast, but I participate because of the gathering and the power of pray.  I feel humbled, my soul feels refreshed, I feel spiritually feed, and I have a close connection to God.  After asking God to reveal to me the type of fasting I need to do and what sacrifice to make, I make my fasting goals accordingly.  I pray 40 days for strength when I feel weak from temptations, and I pray for the healing and happiness for human life.  I will continue to participate in Lent as long as I live.


V Commitment:


In the next 6 months I will write goals for each category of physical, psychological, and spiritual development.  I will choose one exercise or practice every week for each domain.  I will journal my feeling of my progress, my struggles, and accomplishments.  Once I accomplish a goal each week, I will reward myself a day off, treat myself to a massage, or maybe treat myself to something sweet.  I will support myself by being surrounded by positive people and those who are working towards the same goals.  Having a professional support group or a mentor who doesn’t mind giving a little advice or giving emotional support would help me sustain my motivations.  Once the goals have been accomplished, I would set new goals for another 6 months.

For my long-term goals I will add more meals to my day and eat more raw vegetables, drink more water, and exercise daily.  But one of my first and far most long-term goals is to quit smoking.  I am going to purchase a smokeless cigarettes kit at the end of this month. 







Reference:

Dacher, E. S. (2006). Integral Health, The Path to Human Flourishing. Laguna Beach: Basic Health.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Unit 8- My Practices

The two practices I enjoyed the most were Loving Kindness and Visualizations exercises.  I used Loving Kindness as a back after doing the other meditations.   When I find myself losing cite of my intentions or getting overwhelmed by my emotions, I would return to the Loving Kindness exercise to calm myself down.  It also allows me to measure my progress of improving self-awareness and self-healing. 
I now know that I need to continue these exercises daily.  It is so gratifying to notice the change in my life in the moment during and after the exercise and than going thru my day and noticing my behavior toward different situations has changed or changing.  At first I was scared of the new self-discoveries and how I am handling things differently now.  I get so excited I want to share it with someone, but most people I know don’t do such exercises as we have done in class and I am sure there is much more to come.  They can’t relate to experiences in the way I see them now.  So I just want to say, thank you class and professor for allowing me to share my experience with you and sharing yours.

As far as my clients, I know for sure I will be implemented visual mediation in my work.  I am already teaching Awareness To Moving (ATM) lessons through the Feldenkrais method and I always believed that every emotion has a positions.  I hope to help people recognize their habitual positions when the emotions are negative and teach them how to explore other options of space within there reach that is accessible to them. Furthermore the only way to learn Feldenkrais method is to do the movement your self.  With that being said for each ATM lesson I teach, I have to explore my own awareness to recognize the connections to be able to explain it to others.  The more classes I teach, the more learning and awareness of me.  I have a big lesson plan!

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Thank You Grandma


Listen to “Meeting Asciepius” from Dacher CD was a revisit of an experience I had four years ago.  I went to an Indian sweet ceremony that lasted for hours.  The same vision I experienced in the ceremony was the same experience in our exercise.  My guardian angel is my great, great, grand grandmother who was a Native medicine woman.  She has spoken to me many times before in my sleep.  At first I thought I was going crazy, but she appeared again in this exercise.  I know now she is my guardian angle, my spirit guide, and my communications to a higher being.  I am still learning how to listen to her, all thou it has been difficult to calm my thoughts down to listen to her.  I keep questioning what is happening instead of witnessing my thoughts of my thinking mind.  I see it now.  I understand I have to continue to practice daily and focus my efforts to maintain myself as an observer inside and outside.  I have made improvements, but it has been difficult to master.  I have improved switching my attentions from noisy thoughts to the movement of my breath.  I have also leaned to loosen my grip of past and current events during the process of witnessing the moment.  I feel a lot more relaxed and calm during the rest of my day after doing this exercise, yet I still need to continue this journey.  Work in progress.  Awesome!

The say “One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself” is like a travel agent standing in front of you, telling you about a wonderful white sandy beach with a beautiful sun set view, while he looks past your head focusing on a poster on the wall behind you.  He describes a picture and cannot resonate with the experience of be there. Than you take his advice and find yourself in a swamp of muddy waters in an unsafe place that no man should be, fearing for your life and being mad later.
We do have an obligation to our clients to express our psychological health, physical practice, and spiritual experiences as a resource of what we know to be true and using those experiences as a tool to reflect possibilities for others who are open minded to explore. To implement my personal life of psychological and spiritual health and wellness is to mentally prepare my mind to be physically active, guided by my spiritual path daily.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Unit 6: Loving Kindness - Integral Assessment

As I first read the exercise Universal Loving-Kindness, I already knew the power of giving, loving and kindness by praying for the earth and anything breathing air and moving in it.  I pray for the release of pain, suffering, and fear for those who hold on to it and I ask a higher source bigger than myself to protect those who ask for guidance and protection.  It is said to receive you must give, even if its in prayer. It only takes a mustard seed of effort and the more the merrier.

As far as my assessment, boy I have a lot of work to do.  I guess my main concern, and believe me this class definitely has me on my way, is to recognize the distinction between short-term relief of needless suffering and permanent relief.  Second is distinction between immediate pleasure and long-term flourishing, I’m still trying to figure that one out.  Third addresses the aspects, levels, and lines of development that are relevant to my current circumstances.  Like this describes, I have accommodated my inner-self to the outer character of life for a long time.  Habits are hard to break. I think my experience growing up as a child reflex a lot of my uncontrollable emotions now.  I will continue to apply what I have learned in the past 5 years, the last 2 years in college, and through other resources in the way I now under stand it to be.  I will take a careful observation of my current circumstance and modify my behavior in a more pro-active way.  As my spiritual mind body and soul continues to grow and as my values alter, I will reassess what is relevant in the moment it happens in hopes of moving to the next level of understanding the world I live in and me.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Unit 5 Mind over Matter

Comparing the exercise of Loving Kindness and Subtle Mind was somewhat difficult to do.  In the loving Kindness track I had to embrace a loved one in need and a whole bunch of feeling and thoughts of hopelessness ran across my mind, because I feel I have done every thing I could possible do to support them, but I am very drained.  On the other hand when listening to subtle mind track is was teaching me how to let go of the grasping thoughts of the loved one I had in mind. Its amazing to me how your thoughts can get the best of you even if you think you have control of them.  You end up playing attentions to the wrong things you have no control over.  I see this is going to take sometime to master this technique of maintaining a calm and still mind in a quite place.  Learning how to let go of those gripping thoughts, feeling, and mental images while paying attention to the mental watch of all its movement is not an easy task to control, especially overnight.

Unit 5 Mind over Matter

Comparing the exercise of Loving Kindness and Subtle Mind was somewhat difficult to do.  In the loving Kindness track I had to embrace a loved one in need and a whole bunch of feeling and thoughts of hopelessness ran across my mind, because I feel I have done every thing I could possible do to support them, but I am very drained.  On the other hand when listening to subtle mind track is was teaching me how to let go of the grasping thoughts of the loved one I had in mind. Its amazing to me how your thoughts can get the best of you even if you think you have control of them.  You end up playing attentions to the wrong things you have no control over.  I see this is going to take sometime to master this technique of maintaining a calm and still mind in a quite place.  Learning how to let go of those gripping thoughts, feeling, and mental images while paying attention to the mental watch of all its movement is not an easy task to control, especially overnight.