Unit 10 - So Long Every One

I can’t say how much has changed since unit 3.   However, I have learned a lot about myself during this course.  I think whatever it is inside of me has been stirred up.  It’s as if something is still cooking in the oven, but it’s not done yet.  In unit 3, I discussed having problems identifying giving to myself.  I am still processing the thought of the experience.   It scared me at first and I know it needs to change, but I’m still not clear how to do so.  If I had to rate my assessment from 1-10, 1 being the best and 10 being the worst it would be 7-psychologically, 6- physically, and 6-spiritually.

When it comes to my psychological assessment, I have learned to be more observant and pay attention to my behavior in most of my situations only when I am conscious of it.  I am learning to control my emotions a lot more and I am learning not to let my feeling get the best of me.

As far as my physical assessment, I have not been physically active like I use to be.  This is because of school and 2 part-time jobs.  As soon as school is over, in June 2011, I will be physically active again.  I can’t wait.  I am looking forward to it.  The other thing is to stop smoking.  I was never able to smoke and workout at the same time.  This may help me cut down on my smoking.  Meanwhile, I will get one of those smokeless cigarettes kits and start with that first before I start working out.

My spiritual assessment is one aspect that needs the most work.  I have finally made up my mind to stick with the word of God instead of jumping around different types of religions.  I will still stay spiritual than to be religious.  I don’t see myself joining any church anytime soon.  I have notice I pray differently.  For example, instead of wishing to have something, I’m thankful of what I have and instead of asking him, I already clam it.

The goals and activates I set for myself is to continue the meditation exercise given in class, Subtle mind, Calm Abiding, and the Visualizations.  I need to make a commitment on doing these exercised daily.  I have been so busy that it has been difficult to put it into action.  Whenever I get a break, I sleep, but I will make a stronger effort to do more by adding it into a daily schedule.  Make an appointment to myself to meditate.  

Since the course, it has truly been an in lighting experience.  I have discovered a lot about myself along the way and I need to continue to practice what I have learned every day.  I believe people can heal themselves, but you have to know yourself, trust the process, and know there is something bigger and greater than all of us.   If I can relate to the experience where one has gone before than I can be more connected to assist anyone who seek a deferent model of health care and experience a more integral path to human flourishing.